i actually don’t know what is wrong with me right now??? feeling awfully depressed and confused? T_T

well lets start of with today for a change…. started chem w/s today at 10 today with SH was pretty fun and then had him again at 2 for 2U w/s was okay not too bad but it was after that when everything started happening???

everyone was on their Iphone and we had a massive like MASSIVE kart-rider multi-player competition. Jess, Korean, Jason/Debbie, SH…. korean won almost every game

and it got to the point where Rufina and i couldn’t stand it any longer so i went on the hunt to steel someone’s IPhone which had kart-rider so i asked Katie (the receptionist) but then james said that his phone had kart-rider (which i knew and was gonna ask him after asking Katie) and i was like to him
“can i have your phone” and he was like
“no” and i was like
“why not?” then he took his phone and was like
“okay but only because it is you“  so i ran off with it didn’t think too much of it  at the time and don’t really know what he means by it
also for our 1:1(more like 3:1) i we were supposed to have James but for some reason he never ended up taking us and instead we had Phil for 2 hrs.  
anyway back to the chronological order we were all playing and Rufina and I who have never played Kart-rider practiced on james phone… a nice game i may say but that is besides the point… 
then he came in and wanted his phone back so i gave it to him… so then i stole SH’s phone and started playing on it… it was 4.45 ish i i decided to go home… so as i was walking to the station i saw James and Phil together and yeah said bye… i am getting to the main part of the story now…

yeah as i was waiting for my train, on my train and walking home… all the songs that i was listening to were all depressing even the song i am listening to now… so i practically started to feel sad and depressed and especially when “dance with my father” by JV came on i started tearing and the tears even rolled down my face… but not to the point where i was about to burst into tears! oh yeah and at tutor during 2U workshop my left eye started tearing and then my right for no particular reason and everyone thought i was crying… AWKWARD!
 
yeah so on my way home i just started to have random thoughts.. like the “what if…” and the “i think…” so yeah i feel pretty gvabvoaebgv  right now and can’t really seem to think properly.. and was planing to do maths for most of the night but ever since i came home i haven’t touched it at all and i don’t think any time soon as well! 

oh wells continuing with the rest of the week we got our reports and Parent/Teacher interviews on tuesday… i was quite surprised with some of my results especially with eco as i though i did really bad but with the results of the reports i didn’t do too bad… yeah i am now planing to get my ranks up in everything especially in chem, eco and bio… 
i want to be top 25 for eng, 30 for maths and chem, 15 for bio and eco! and i would be happy so now that i have a goal i am gonna work towards that and if i get results that surpass my expectations i would be one happy person however if i don’t i hope to deteriorate… and that is practically it for the week!

oh and i almost forgot to mention that i lost my train pass on monday afternoon… and they said they found it in Padstow… which i thought i would never see again but nevertheless i am thankful to the person who handed it in!

at this rate i would have written an essay! FAR OUT!!!
i’m so screwed atm!!! PHOTO TIME!!!

almost 700 words actually more than 700!!! :O… this seems to be getting longer each week! :O

AHAHA this photo is what we took during bio on the 160511♥

Byes for now and i shall see you next week feeling much BETTER! ♥